30.3.05-16.04.05 : nothings changed

i feel so much the need to talk today, i'm so grateful this exists! i'm feeling quite down with the stagnancy and the look of everyone around going through ups and downs, but atleast still moving. what is my kind of movement? the designs working out today? and again, oh no it doesnt seem too much in place. i mean c'mon how much is there to debate over this? also to look at it like this makes me feel sad. because eventually i know its not my 100 per cent, im compromising already. not even like after this there is much to look forward to. but dont know which direction to go in. there seem like so many choices and when you get to them, there are none at all. i dont know, everything has just been good in distancing. but facing it, the world doesnt seem like it would give you ur space. i so want to share. to talk, but what to do, some things are just not within your reach.