Antibiotics and impulse

i like to keep things impulsive, antibiotics keep the daze real.
i cant think anymore, part intutive and part numb, the perfect combination to keep thoughts uncontrolled.
pure and simple, i feel alive again.
like writing without knowing its being read, i dont want to see the faces who i know come here.
i want to keep hold of my pen for my impulse. the drugs keep me shivering, but fearless.
i like this being, more than the one who thinks.